One Third of My Light Is Gone

"...And the fourth angel sounded the trumpet, and the third part of the sun was smitten, and the third part of the moon, and the third part of the stars, so that the third part of them was darkened. And the day did not shine for a third part of it,, and the night in like manner." --Rev. 8:12

I have three sons. One of them is in the spirit world. On October 26, 2009, one third of the light in my life went out forever.

Friday, May 14, 2010

Songs of the Humpback Whale

I just finished this book. It made me think a lot about Maris.

Songs of the Humpback whale is by Jodi Picoult.

Here is one passage that touched me:

"I used to think, before this whole incident, that parental love was supposed to be unconditional . I believed that Rebecca would naturally be tied to me because I had been the one to bring her into the world. I didn't connect this with my own experience. When I could not love my father, I assumed there was something wrong with me. But when they carried Rebecca in here from the stretcher of the ambulance, I came to see things differently. If you want to love a parent you have to understand the incredible investment he or she has in you. If you are a parent, and you want to be loved, you have to deserve it.
Suddenly I am dizzy with guilt. "What do you want me to say, Rebecca?"
Rebecca will not look at me. "Why do you want me to forgive you? What do youo get out of it?"
Absolution, I think, the first word that comes to my mind. I get to protect you from what I went through. "Why do I want you to forgive me? Because I never forgave my father, and I know what it will do to you...I never forgave him because I thought that way I would have the last laugh. But he won. He's in me."