One Third of My Light Is Gone

"...And the fourth angel sounded the trumpet, and the third part of the sun was smitten, and the third part of the moon, and the third part of the stars, so that the third part of them was darkened. And the day did not shine for a third part of it,, and the night in like manner." --Rev. 8:12

I have three sons. One of them is in the spirit world. On October 26, 2009, one third of the light in my life went out forever.

Saturday, January 21, 2012

Message From Tech School Friend

I am grateful when I meet people who cared about Maris.   I understand the purpose of  life on this planet less and less with every passing day.  The only thing that makes sense about it is the quality of our relationships.  That is why it means so much to know that there were so many awesome people who cared about Maris the way they did, and that he had a positive effect on them.  It bringd me joy and comfort thatl they got to know him and spend even a little time with him.  

" My name is Eric Grace and I was Maris's class leader during tech school in Texas. I want to say that I am so sorry for your loss. Butta as I knew him, was by far the smartest kid in the class. He was also my favorite. That's why I made sure that I sat near him the whole six months. I related to him more than any of the other students, with his quiet demeanor and rich sense of humor.
I know that you already know most of this but I wanted to share with you how I see him. When I got the news I was deeply saddened. I am glad to have been enlightened by his caring soul."



Thank you for these kind words, Eric, and I am so happy your path crossed with Maris's.

Monday, January 2, 2012

Shamanic Healing Journey for maris, December 23, 2009

Client Journey 12/23/09, by Joan Forest Mage:


For Maris Butta. This was a followup to the journey 12/22/09.

Immediately upon starting the journey, I saw the same spirit entity as yesterday, a man saying, “There is a debt to be paid!”

I traveled to the Otherworld. Athena and other guides were still at the Spa, healing Maris with the cleansing waters of the hot springs and cold springs.

I saw the African man I had seen yesterday, the one who was glaring. I will call him “Ali”. He was in Africa. He was talking to an African shaman, a tall, stately man of about 60 – 70 years of age. Ali wanted the shaman to put a curse on the slave trader (the person who was Maris in this lifetime) because he was kidnapping people in Ali’s tribe to sell as slaves.

The shaman, a very wise and honorable magical practitioner, said he would not curse anyone, but would put a binding on the slave trader (I’ll call him “Jeremiah”) to keep him from coming to take any more people for slaves. The shaman put the binding on Jeremiah, leaving it up to Spirit to arrange this in the best way. Interestingly, what happened was that the slave trader ran into problems with his (the slave trader’s) partner, another European man.

Apparently the slave trader Jeremiah was not only doing terrible things to the Africans, but had even cheated his partner. The partner (I’ll call him “John”) fond out about it and was livid and demanded to be repaid. They fought, and Jeremiah killed John, thus robbing him not only of his money, but of his life as well.

I realized that at least part of the entity I had seen yesterday, the man who was the debt collector, was John’s energy, demanding to be repaid. I had seen this man as a European rather than African, which had struck me as strange if it was Africans who had the grievance. Now I understood why.

I went up to the shaman and asked if I could talk with him. He was a kindly man, who said his name was Saleem. I explained that I had come to help the person who was Maris in his most recent lifetime. I told Saleem I admired both his skill and professional integrity as a spiritual practitioner in dealing with the situation in such an energetically clean manner.

I asked Saleem if he could release the binding on Jeremiah/Maris. Saleem seemed a bit hesitant, as if he wasn’t sure if he could trust me, and if it was finally all right to release the binding. I searched for what would convince him, and then said, “The mother and father of the man Maris in this lifetime are really praying for him.” I showed Saleem Ray and Deena’s prayers; the energy of the prayers was beautiful and golden and abundant. It was apparent to anyone who saw this that there was merit to the request to end this binding; that this person who was Maris had changed his ways from the way Jeremiah acted. Saleem believed this and was moved, and released the binding.

But I heard a voice say, “The debt must still be paid.” Releasing the binding was only one step; there was still energy to be balanced around the situation.

To do this, the guides took me to a place where Jeremiah was holding a soul part of John’s. I was reminded of the shamanic rule of thumb that whenever there is physical violence, there is energetic violence and soul stealing. Jeremiah killed John physically, and also took part of John’s soul.

The guides returned John’s soul part to him. John was still livid over the money he had lost. Athena came and talked to John, asking him what he needed to repay the debt. Basically, he wanted financial abundance, enough to compensate him for the lifetimes he has lived in financial and energetic poverty, ever since Jeremiah took the soul part from him.

An angel was assigned to John to lead him to this financial abundance.  John was finally satisfied, and left.

Next, I saw the glaring African man. (I’ll call him “Ali”.) It was in Africa, and I saw him walking in shock and rage among the dead bodies of his tribe, including family and relatives. I am not sure of the circumstance, but Jeremiah was to blame. Perhaps the slave traders came had come to the village, and for some reason killed these people rather than taking them as slaves.

Ali demanded justice; he wanted the debt to be paid. I asked the guides what to do. They asked, “Ali, instead of asking how we can pay this debt, we ask: what is it you most want? That is what will pay this debt.”

In answer, the bodies came back to life. That is what Ali really wanted. There were eight people in particular that he wanted to see come to life. They might be his immediate family.

The guides said, “Ali, these people have reincarnated many times since they died in the lifetime you were asking about. You have even lived with them again yourself! That is the real answer to this question: that life is eternal and always triumphs over death.

“Yet, it is true that there is still a debt. These people were robbed of their lives. Also, by being killed in this heinous way, they were robbed of vitality that they otherwise would have had in subsequent lifetimes. Because of this, they were often poor or had other troubles in many lifetimes.”

The guides continued, “To repay this debt, blessings and prayers can be sent to these eight people. This will create abundance for them in this current lifetime.”

I got the sense that I should ask Ray and Deena to do this praying. I said, “I will ask Maris’s mother and father if they will restore the balance of the universe by praying for these people. I cannot guarantee that they will agree to this, but I will ask them. I think they would be willing.” I added, “What if I ask them to pray for these eight people for a year? Or a year and a day, which is a typical contract in our European tradition?”

“Three years,” said Ali counter offered, sternly.

“Very well!” I answered, smiling. “I will ask Ray and Deena if they will pray this way for three years.” I added, “In any case, I will promise to do it myself, so the energy exchange will happen.” Ali was satisfied. I realized it will be 12/24/12 when this contract is up, right after the famous “2012” date of 12/21/12.

The guides said merrily, “The people you are praying for will not even know why they have become so fortunate!”

“If possible,” I said cheerfully, “I would like us – Ray, Deena and me – to meet some of these people, and to know that they are the ones we have been praying for.” It is good when one can feel that one’s prayers have definitely had an effect, even though it might be in a way that is not provable. I got the sense that this will happen.

I heard a voice, “There is still a debt to be paid!” There is one more situation that needs to be balanced. I will journey again, possibly tomorrow, to deal with this situation.

I returned to ordinary reality, thanking the spirits and the Mystic Law.


Shamanic Healing Journey for Maris, January 13, 2010

Client Journey 1/13/10 by Joan Forest Mage:


For Maris Butta, distance healing.

I journeyed to follow up on some of the leads I had been given in previous journeys. I asked about the lifetime Maris had in Atlantis, which seemed to be the origin of many of the problems that Maris has had in subsequent lifetimes.

I saw Maris as a man in Atlantis. I saw him working in a shop of some kind. It seemed he was the proprietor of the shop, and that he was selling something that had to do with their technology. It was interesting to experience this ancient lifetime being similar to ours, with a shop owner working in his shop.

I got the information that he had created some kind of spiritual “working” in that lifetime that is still in effect, and that this has caused problems ever since. I suspect it was a working based in greed, and that the person who was Maris in this lifetime has been feeling the karmic effects ever since.

The guides said that this was enough for today. I returned to ordinary reality, thanking the spirits and the Mystic Law.
 
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Shamanic Healing Journey for Maris--December 31, 2009

Client Journey 12/31/09


For Maris, Ray and Deena Butta, distance healing.

I saw the threatening, accusing man I had seen on the other journeys for Maris. Recalling what Deena had told me, I asked if there was a past life we needed to heal in which Maris was a Nazi. But instead, the guides were telling me about an ancient lifetime in Atlantis in which Maris did something wrong.

However, the guides said that we were not going to deal with that lifetime on this journey, but rather take care of other things related to Maris.

The threatening man morphed into Maris as a child. This soul part of Maris was about 5 years old. He kept trying to grab my energy so he could hold on to me and have protection, but this was not a good thing. I called on guides Athena , Phoenix and other guides to help, and they put protection around me so Maris and the threatening man could not touch me.

Why did I see this man morph into Maris? Did something happen to Maris when he was 5 years old regarding this man, in which the man was attaching to Maris’s energy in a negative way, draining Maris? I did not recognize the man, he was not Maris’s father Ray or another person I would know. The nearest I could tell he might be a teacher Maris had.

I took this 5-year old soul part of Maris to Maris’s adult soul part which was still at the Spa with Athena and the other guides. I blew the 5-year old back into Maris. This can be a necessary part of healing before a person can cross over: they need to get soul parts back before moving on to their next life.

Bear, Hawk and Wolf appeared as Power Animals for Maris. I blew these into Maris.

Bear and Wolf said they wanted to go to Ray as well, to help him. So I brought them to Ray. Ray can benefit by doing practices to honor and connect with Bear and Wolf, and to see what advice they will give him.

Panther wanted to come to Deena. As a healing, Panther ate out her eyes, then regurgitated them back into her eye sockets. The eyes are now healed, and Panther will stay with her for at least a while to help her health conditions. She can benefit by doing practices to honor and connect with Bear and Wolf, and to see what advice they will give her.

There are probably two more journeys to do.

I returned to ordinary reality, thanking the spirits and the Mystic Law.

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Shamanic Healing Journey for Maris January 1, 2012

Thank you to Joan Forest Mage of Life Force Arts Center for this healing journey, which was a followup to previous healings for the soul of Maris.  It was an excellent activity for the first day of 2012, the year we have all been waiting for with great interest:

"Client Journey 1/1/12

This was a further journey to help Maris Butta.

I asked what healing needed to be done at this time, specifically to follow up on his lifetime in Atlantis. Saleem, the medicine man from Africa who had put a binding on Maris when Maris was a man named Jeremiah in a former lifetime, appeared. Saleem said he would help with Maris' healing in the Atlantean and other lifetimes.

A healing was done for Ali, the man who was angry with Maris in the African lifetime. Ali was lying on the ground, and Saleem had a energy form that looked like a snake, go through him and dissolve the anger, letting it flow into the earth and be transformed.

We went to the lifetime of Maris in Atlantis. I am using the name "Jo" for the man Maris was in that lifetime. I saw that he was using a device that controlled people's minds. I asked more about the device. The impression I received is that Jo created this because he was angry at a woman (perhaps a woman who rejected his love?) He wanted to have a way of controlling people because of that. It was especially directed towards keeping women disempowered. In other words, Jo made this device not to help people, but from a low life condition, a place of woundedness (anger). That's what makes it negative and wrong: the intention behind why something is made. The need to control comes from feelings of fear or anger 

As I got more impressions about the device, I saw that it worked not so much by directly controlling the person's mind, as it controlled people by allowing the one using the device to implant ideas into the controlee's mind. It worked on the principles of biofeedback as well - the ways people can be controlled through physical means such as sleep deprivation, starvation, creating constant fear, etc. 

Importantly, I saw how this device had created a thought pattern of oppressor and victim throughout history, ever since Atlantean times. The thought pattern lived on far beyond the actual device. Thought patterns are powerful enough in themselves, this was something I became more aware of from this journey.

The guides told me that Jo needed to agree to deactivate and destroy the device. We asked him to do so, and finally he agreed. I saw the thought forms dissolve, as though into ash. Then the ash resurrected into a Phoenix, which meant a better, positive thought form.

Then I saw that not only was it in Jo and his lifetimes, but it was through all (or at least many) humans, ever since Atlantean times. I saw these thought forms being removed from people alive now, all 6 billion people on Earth, and back throughout all their lifetimes. It is a huge project. I asked for many spirit guides to help with this project, and a large team appeared. They will be working on it for a while, perhaps all of 2012. I can also work on this each day a little, lending my energy to the project. The more people who do this, the better. Deena said she would do it as well.

Removing this need to control and be controlled from human consciousness will create a very different world than we have experienced for a long time in human history.

I returned to ordinary reality, thanking the spirits and the Mystic Law."